"Triple Care Farm was an opportunity that I really didn't think was possible. I began to think about how this would benefit my life after leaving the program."
By the third week I had rediscovered self-belief, which had been missing from my life for years. I was also gaining the trust and friendship of some of the workers (especially Sara O). That bond and interpersonal connection was so important to me in my recovery.
I began to realise that Triple Care Farm is not just a rehab facility, but a safe and caring place for young adults to live, learn and improve on behavioural issues. The workers really care and were there whenever you needed them. I especially want to mention Tamara (my Links to Learning teacher). I was particularly concerned about this area of the program, having little confidence in my desire or ability to learn. As a Year 9 'dropout' I thought it would be boring and too hard...to my complete surprise, I loved it.
Learning made me feel alive and made me re-think my future career path. I thought I had set myself up for failure as I'd never finished a course before—my drug use had always derailed my attempts. Not using and being able to focus feels amazing!
I remember once starting the schoolwork with Tamara and not wanting it to end. That feeling is so empowering. I trust myself now that I am capable of starting something and finishing it. That feeling is a greater high than that of any drug!
The people at TCF are fantastic and it was important knowing that my treatment was an individually tailored plan, not just a generic 'one size fits all' model. I believe this is how I was allowed to grow as a unique individual.
Now I truly believe I'm a smarter person than I've given myself credit for in the past. I feel stronger within myself than I have previously felt. This has given my hope to believe in a brighter future. I really feel that I'm capable of achieving whatever I set my mind to.
It is only since spending time at the Farm that the sobering reality, of the depth of loneliness and despair of my former existence, has become clear. This has made me determined to continue on this path of expanding my world on the outside. To this end, I am already beginning some volunteer activities in the community through the local community centre. I also believe that continued counselling is important for my success on the outside, as this was a valuable component of my stay.
Thank you to everyone who cared about me and my recovery. I will forever be grateful for your support and love.
*Rebecca's name has been changed to protect her privacy